You know what?
There’s a general feeling of excitement these days, I’m back where I belong; making art everyday. Mostly I’ve been nose to the sketchbook honing rusty skills and learning new techniques, but there’s this backlog of projects and ideas laying in wait, I can almost feel the pressure of each individual “idea-finger” at the knit of my hem. A pushing/poking…..pulling? I can’t quite tell, but I do know I am eager to begin working with my invisible demons.
Though….. You know what? This is the point where I’ve always stalled, at the cross-roads of execution. I paralyze myself with ideas and directions, options…it’s been my downfall causing lack of action in many situations past. Letting things get too chaotic, both mentally, logistically, and physically (an artist’s studio….can you picture it?) To my credit, I have improved quite a bit in this area, I’ve been more decisive, more organized and more feral in my approach.
In other words, I try to DO more, instead of: think some more about it and plan and make lists before doing. However, I am too self-aware to let even the slightest misstep go without noticing the pattern. Who else is really hard on themselves? All in all, I’m working on being more action oriented rather than idea focused. The ideas are there, I need to flesh out them out now, they will become whole as I move through the process. I need to remember that. Sometimes I make stupid excuses for why I can’t move forward; lack of materials (so untrue it’s gross), lack of time (also untrue and manageable), or lack of knowledge on how to execute (it’s called LEARNING, dude).
Truly it’s not okay to push your self expression to the side for many reasons. This is a hard lesson I have seemingly needed to learn over and over again over my adult life, until finally I hit the wall like a cartoon coyote. Humans are meant to be creative, in some form or another, they are BUILT to express the way it feels and looks to be human. Not everyone chooses to get into art, but regardless of whether you’re a construction worker, a banker, or a deeply fringe, backwoods junk collector; you have creativity in your bones and it WILL come out in some behavior in some fashion, whether you mean to display it or not.
We are truly absurd creatures. It’s a good time, even when it’s not. Because it’s all interesting. Well, I’ll just end with that understatement and be on my way. Thanks for reading this, feel free to head over to SEEK and send me a message, engage, whatever! I’m not here just to be a goofball jester, we can always get down to brass tacks if you want. I enjoy conversations that lead deep into cavernous regions of human psyche. HIT ME UP.
